Thoughts on Black Friday

Life Behind the Kid

A lot of my readers live in the U.S. and celebrate Christmas but I’m hoping this post will ring true with everyone, because I’m about to talk about something that everyone can relate to: TOYS. Everybody loves toys. Even as you become an adult, you have to admit that our devices, cars, household gadgets and other items can become a lot like toys are to a child. But my question today is this, “How important are they, really?”

To a mom, I would say that toys are definitely a lifesaver. When you need 10 minutes of peace to clean or organize or heck, veg out on the couch, what do you say? “Here, play with your toys.” Honestly I think they benefit us sometimes more than they do our kids. But here’s a picture that illustrates that all these expensive doodads and thingamajigs are not always necessary.


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Official Resignation

I hereby declare that NaNoWriMo is a wonderful thing, but simply not for me.

I have tried and tried to get an idea ready to write and the bottom line is, I just cannot write something if the idea is only half-developed and sloppy. I JUST CAN’T. I aim for something amazing when I write and when it’s not amazing, to me it just… sucks. I can’t handle writing something awful. It’s just not in me. Great job to those who have already written 30K+ words in a month though, I truly admire you for that! I wish I could have joined you in that triumph! I won’t be attempting this again… It’s just not my style or my method to rush through things. For me, slow and steady wins the race, or at least tries to.

So yeah, now that that weight is off my shoulders I can tell you what my dilemma is. I am torn between two AMAZING book ideas. It’s the worst love triangle ever. On the one hand, I have a fantasy novel that I’ve been working on the concept for forever and now I’m finally figuring out what I need to do with it. On the other, I have a new(ish) idea for a YA fiction novel involving a girl and a band that is pretty awesome too. I would love to write both but it is too confusing for me to work on two projects at once. I need to choose one to focus on, but gosh, it’s just so hard!

Why do I have to be so much of a perfectionist? It really is a curse as a writer. I’m missing out on writing an amazing book because I’m just too afraid to frickin’ FAIL. Why is failure so scary to me?? Somebody give me a pep talk, please… And if you have any suggestions for deciding what idea to follow through on that would be great. I know it’s hard without the details and I’m sorry for that, but even just a general suggestion on how to make up my mind would be grand.

Thanks for reading my incoherent babbling. I’ve had a long day.


Frigid Fall Fun Day (with Floaters)

Crazy kid…

Life Behind the Kid

So today was kind of a typical day for Austin and me up until about noon. A few minutes after I got up, he started stirring and whimpered a little bit to let me know he was awake. I picked him up and held him as I did a few things on the computer and after Daddy went to work I fed him his cereal and then we went to the living room to watch Gilmore Girls. Yes, we watch shows that Mommy likes during the day. He doesn’t care yet, anyway.

My mom picked us up later and we had a fun Chick-fil-A lunch with her and my brother and sister. It was so cold today that I almost decided not to go out, but I love hanging out with people outside the house and so does he, so we braved the Arctic Tundra with jackets and blankets and…

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Welcome to my Parenting Journal!

My new (additional) blog, “Life Behind the Kid”

Life Behind the Kid

Hello readers!

I decided to jump off of my writing blog,, and create a blog specifically dedicated to parenting and being a stay-at-home-mom. The title is not only a play on my other blog title but also a play on the fact that everyone greets the baby first. Everybody. He’s the star, and everyone knows it!

This blog will only contain advice if I decide something I did that worked is worth sharing. I will also share deals that I find on baby/children’s items from time to time. Mostly, though, this is just a place for people who know us or read my writing blog to catch up on what Austin is doing, saying, learning, and getting into. (it’s also a place for me to visit when my baby is grown up and out of the house and I’m laying in bed with three boxes of tissues bawling…

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Missing Motivation

I have to say I have never struggled this much to start a novel. Ever. I’m doing NaNoWriMo this year (or trying anyway) and I still can’t work up the courage to really commit to my novel idea. I haven’t written much in it so far as a result. At this point, I’m wondering if maybe I should just chuck the whole thing and start again (for like the 15th time…).

I know I could be a great writer if all of my ideas didn’t suck so much. I’ve got the expressiveness, grammar, form, and everything else down, but all of my ideas are just… duds. Plus, even if I do get a good idea, I don’t believe in it enough to write all the hard stuff (descriptions, explanations, etc.) and so my work ends up being short-winded and completely empty and hollow. All of this uncertainty is leading me to doubt so much about myself. If I don’t believe in what I’m writing, am I even a writer at all?

I know, I’m wasting valuable time talking about how hard it is to get started instead of actually starting. I guess I just hate spending time and effort on a thing if I don’t believe in it. I did some research on my personality type the other day and found out that I’m an “INFJ”: Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging. People like me have to have a real passion for something in order to pursue it. We have to believe in things. Also, we’re perfectionists, which makes it so hard to write and not care whether it’s good or bad. Maybe that’s why it’s so hard for me to actually write something. Maybe that’s why it feels near impossible.

I’m starting to think that maybe NaNoWriMo isn’t going to work for me this time. I’m just not ready to sit down and write. Perhaps my personality just will not allow me to proceed until the outline is finalized. My concept is not mature yet and I need it to be.

This is not me throwing in the towel… yet. I’ll try to do some outlining tonight and see where it leads me. I won’t cheat and add it into my word count but maybe it will at least allow me to stay in the running.

Maybe, maybe, maybe… Ugh. I hate being this unsure about everything.

Hope your day or evening is going better than mine!