New Year’s Goals!!


Happy New Year’s Eve everyone! I hope you all had a marvelous 2011 and will have a fantastic 2012!

Before I share my goals for the New Year with you, I would like to explain one of the items on the list. “CollegePlus” is a program that partners with a college in New Jersey to provide online education for a variety of different fields, one of which is music. It is an accelerated program that costs much less than regular college and it seems like God might be directing me to take advantage of this opportunity. If I do this I should have a fully accredited music degree in 3 years or less (once I start the program).

Here is the website for anyone who may be completely confused by what I just said or wants more information–

http://www.collegeplus.org/

With that out of the way, here are my goals and desires for 2012! 🙂

I hope to—

~Save $1000 towards CollegePlus and win some sort of scholarship or prize to make up the difference so I can begin CollegePlus in 2013.

~Lose 20 lbs. or more by December 31, 2012.

~Finish and perform an original song (original lyrics and music).

~Finish a screenplay, series, or novel.

~Stay on track and finish my Life Application Bible reading plan.

~Make at least 5 new friends (and I don’t just mean Facebook friends, REAL friends like the ones I met this year!).

~Keep my job and possibly find a new one.

~If God wills, meet Mr. Right 😉

~Establish strong, open, pure relationships with everyone in my life.

~Get settled in the right church with the right group of friends (whatever that may mean).

~Serve Yahweh in whatever I do.

 

What are your goals? I hope you achieve them and find happiness in the coming year! Cheers to 2012!!

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New Hope


Every year on December 30, I journal what happened in the past year and how it changed me. Then on the 31st, I journal my goals for the brand new year ahead. This year’s 12/30 journal would have been very depressing if I had only recorded what actually happened. “I tried this school, but it didn’t work out.” “I couldn’t find a steady job until October.” “I broke up with my boyfriend.” “We struggled for money all year.” “I never finished my novel.” “I gained back most of the weight I lost.”

But instead of just writing all that (and depressing myself) I also wrote about all the amazing people I met this year and the good things I learned through my experiences. The end of 2011 finds me in a new mindset about life. I feel like the whole world has opened before me. I have none of the burdens I was carrying around last year; I have different ones now, but they’re not so terrible. Mostly I just have to wait for a while for things to get better and do my part to make sure they do. It may sound crazy to be rejoicing in my troubles and trials, but I am. I am coming out on the other side as a stronger, more complete person with a little less of the undesirable stuff–like greed, weakness, and shallowness.

My prayer for the new year is that things will get better and I will make real progress toward my goals. Tomorrow I will post my dreams and goals for the new year, and I hope that everyone who reads my blog will feel free to share as well 🙂

The Christmas Spirit


The title of this blog post is one that all Americans who celebrate Christmas are probably familiar with. It’s that cheesy line repeated over and over in Christmas movies that none of us really understand. What is the Christmas spirit? Where does it show up? Most of all, how can you and I obtain it and experience it?

Today I experienced the Christmas spirit firsthand through my sister and her friend. My sister, 2 of my brothers, and I were all in a Christmas play during the past couple weeks. The theatre was running a contest for selling tickets: whoever sold the most tickets by the last performance would win a scholarship to the drama camp of their choice (at that theatre) and a beautiful, brand-new mountain bike. I can only imagine how many of those kids had their eye on that prize.

We made it through 6 performances in 2 weeks and received rave reviews. The play was an amazing success thanks to our great cast and crew. When we got to the end of today’s performance it was time to reveal the winner of the contest. I looked forward to seeing the joy on the face of the child who won that bike. It truly was a beauty.

Before I reveal the ending to this little story, let me preface by saying this has been a very difficult year for my family. Money has been so tight that we often wonder how we’re going to eat and pay our bills, so obviously luxuries have all but disappeared from our lives at the moment.

I wasn’t surprised when no one from my family won the prize. I knew we hadn’t done as much as other families in the cast to sell tickets and I was hoping someone really deserving would win it. A little girl named Kaylin was called forward and everyone applauded heartily for her.

Then I heard a voice call out, “I want to give the bike to Ariel,” and watched tearfully as she rolled the bike over to my sister. Apparently Ariel had mentioned in passing to her friends that her bike was broken and she couldn’t use it anymore, and Kaylin worked hard to earn that bike just so she could give it to Ariel. Both of them were so happy and, in spite of the slight twinge of jealousy I’m sure a lot of the kids might have felt, I think everyone else was happy too.

If this isn’t the “Christmas spirit,” I’m not really sure what is. If more people had this kind of love for their friends and neighbors I can only imagine how wonderful this world would be. The spirit of giving of yourself for someone who doesn’t have much goes all the way back to a manger in Bethlehem and continues into this present day inside a little girl who did whatever it took just to give something nice to a friend. I pray that the “Christmas spirit” will continue to thrive in human hearts for many ages to come.

 

EDIT TO ADD: This is the website for the theatre that held the play and the contest. All of my local friends, please support this place! It is awesome!

http://www.theacademyofarts.org/main.html

Out of School! ….now what??


Christmas break has finally arrived!! And with it comes some time off and some time to really think about where I want to be 10 years from now. It seems like most of the writing I’m doing right now is song lyrics, and I also write music, so if I can just find a way to fit the two together I might be onto something. I’ve about decided that I need to either go to school part-time or not at all right now. I have a plan in mind but I’m hesitant to reveal it until I know for sure it’s going to work, so sorry, I won’t be divulging just yet 😉 Rest assured that I have thought through all the angles and narrowed it down based on what I feel led to do. I will not give up until I’m finished!

I’m hoping that I’ll be able to post in my blog a lot more now that I’m lightening my school load. My writing and composing is everything to me and I’ve lost that recently. I need to get it back, even if it means slowing down on other, less important things. I’m also hoping to start posting about other things besides just “me,” so cutting back on my school load will help with that too. Nothing in my plan is concrete right now but anyone who knows me knows that that’s nothing new. I’m a free spirit by nature, and no amount of traditional schooling (or traditional anything else) is going to change that.

Here’s to nice, long, hopefully productive break! 🙂

Sad Song


Some new song lyrics I wrote this evening 🙂

 

Innocence dies

You learn to cry

Then you learn to pretend that everything’s alright

People change

But it’s okay

You’re too numb to feel the pain anyway

You come and you go as you please

But nothing you do finds relief

 

You’re just a cold heart

Walking the face of a cold world

Just passin’ through, nothing better to do

Than merely existing

You’re a hard soul

Stayin’ alive on a hard road

Never really knowing where you should go

And feelin’ like you don’t belong

Singin’ a sad song

 

Trust is useless

Cause people are ruthless

You’re not one of their favorites, you know

But you’re okay

Cause you’re runnin’ away

And you won’t stop till you’ve got what you’re owed

What the world took away, ohhh

 

You’re just a cold heart

Walkin’ the face of a cold world

Just passin’ through, nothin’ better to do

Than merely existing

You’re a hard soul

Stayin’ alive on a hard road

Never really knowin’ where you should go

And feelin’ like you don’t belong

Singin’ a sad song

 

Don’t slow down

You might find your resolve is breaking

Don’t slow down

You might find your foundation shaking

 

You’re just a cold heart

Walkin’ the face of a cold world

Just passin’ through, nothin’ better to do

Than merely existing

You’re a hard soul

Stayin’ alive on a hard road

Never really knowin’ where you should go

And feelin’ like you don’t belong

Singin’ a sad song

 

Don’t slow down